Another holiday season is upon us, many of us are surprised we made it. It was a major transition year, but the fact we came out the other end is a great sign. While 2017 may have been a difficult year for many of us, transition years are difficult. However, Christmas Eve is a time for reflection and taking mental inventory of what we have. Even while you are embedded with the most annoying family in the world, you should still look at the bright side.
As 2017 reaches its end, it is important to look at things that you could have done differently. Not to dwell on, but to reflect on. Maybe you didn’t get that job you wanted because you refused to take a risk. Playing things close to the chest. Finding the path of least resistance. While those options are ones that will make certain changes more comfortable, maybe it is the shakeup that requires you to find that thing you love. Or that person.
I have gone through many changes this year. Much of with I wouldn’t have been able to get through without my friends and family to help me. I suffered from serious bouts of depression. Negative outlook on life. Thinking about what I didn’t have versus what I do have. During my five-month break, I have come to realize that I have always let my life run me instead of me running my life. Finding passions that I thought I lost. Looking for new directions to break stagnation.
There are many things I can do to change it, but was I willing to take that chance? That isn’t to say that taking chances will always lead you to victory. However, taking chances will allow you to fear less. If you don’t have a certain way of life, take a chance to change it. If you don’t get it, what difference will that make in your life? That is something that I have found in myself and need to make that change. If I do not achieve what I want, then it wasn’t necessarily my fault. I took the chance.
Failure always seems to be the deciding factor when reaching for something.
For this year, I have decided to take a new direction. Personally. Mentally, as well as professionally with this new site. This site is designed to reflect me as a person. I am a geek, but that is not all that I am. I am putting myself out there. It is something that I need to do. I am a geek, but I am also a person. Complicated, intelligent, and someone that can think beyond what I see before me.
As we sit here on this Christmas Eve, I want to thank everyone that has had a part in my life. I want you to be there as I make this journey forward. This blog will be updated more, as it will reflect everything that I think about on a daily basis. Some of it may be questionable, complicated, or even downright offensive. All answers to life are not 30-second soundbites. I hope you will accompany me on this journey of self-discovery. While you sit with your family, loved one, and pets, think about what you have. Be appreciative about it and look to what changes you can make in the new year. Join me, will you. From me to yours, I wish you the merriest of Christmases and the happiest of New Years.